Low self-esteem pisses me off. It’s unattractive and it makes conversations awkward.  Though, what pisses me off the most are those who continually complain about it while doing nothing to get rid of it. I used to have low self-esteem, but then I stopped being a worthless piece of shit when I realized that complaining gets you nowhere and that I’m actually a pretty cool person. I’m awesome. Everybody is awesome, so there’s no reason to feel that way. So, stop it. If you need to, talk to somebody, who cares about you, about your low self-esteem. It helps. It really does.

I hate seeing people put themselves down constantly for no reason. Just be yourself, and fuck everybody else’s opinion. Except for the people you care about. Fuck them instead of their opinion. Their opinion will get jealous but it’s okay. Trust me. 

But, seriously, please stop. Everybody. It’s dumb and doesn’t accomplish anything. Thanks. 

Drawn for Science. But, only for one standard, which sucks considering all of the work I put into it. I’ll probably try to wrangle another standard or two in there somehow. 

Summer school is going good, I think. I’m doing more work there than I’ve done all year. Maybe it’s the severe lack of people in the school. Nice work environment. I like it. 

Tacky colors and cute drawings are a must! More science work drawn. 

Developing a bucket list for a project in summer school. The assignment is rather silly, but I don’t have much grounds to reject it because I can’t come up with project ideas on my own. I guess it’ll be interesting to see what my ambitions are in life by writing them down. I don’t see how I’ll be able to come up with fifty sensible tasks, though. This is difficult. 

I made this for science class. It’s pretty cool, I guess. It’s nice to finally draw something for once. I’ve missed the feeling of pen on tablet. 

I know I shouldn’t be bothered by the affairs of others, especially so when it’s not my place to say anything, but this makes my heart heavy with sadness. Losing something comfortable is a great loss indeed. 

Ripped a patch skin off from my palm today during my school’s “field day” type deal while jumping through hula hoops. It’s not really a big deal, but it hurts some and keeps getting in the way while I’m trying to do things. Injuries are dumb.

I don’t cry very often anymore, but seeing my peers on stage like that… Tears came twice during the graduation ceremony. Though, there will be more tears this time next year, because I’m going to be on that stage with my class, and nobody’s going to stop me. I don’t care how far behind I am, I’ll make it somehow. 

Took an bath at eleven tonight. Felt good to be able to relax, where as taking baths in the morning is a sleepy struggle in the tub. Brushed my hair, and kinda straightened it. Though, I have no idea what I’m doing, so it’s not super straight, but it’s much better than my natural frizzy waviness. I feel good about myself tonight. Last academic day of school tomorrow, so that’s nice. 

I really need to use my Tumblr more often. I forgot how nice it is to talk to everybody yet nobody at once.  

Most of my unhappiness probably stems from my inability to complete basic tasks. Specifically, doing my god damn homework. Or even work during school, for that matter. Like, shit. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve been like this my entire life. Starting things is hard enough, but finishing them? Nope. Why can’t I be an anti-social person that works all day? I’d rather take that then have my temporary happiness. I could only slack off in life for so long, and that time is just about up. I don’t know what I’m going to. I’m scared. 

It’s hard to, like, do things in general when you don’t have a reason to do them anymore. It’s a lot easier to better yourself when you do so for somebody. 

Also, I actually drew something for once in… a long time. It was a star cycle thing for school. Not much, but I might upload it later. Not sure. It felt good to get a pen to tablet again, though. 

I keep worrying myself if I’m worth others’ time. But, really, they’re not worth mine. 

I have nothing to post about anymore… I’m sorry, followers, for being such a bad Tumblrer. Most of my posts of late have been whine-fests. Perhaps I’ll start drawing again. That seems to have been popular-ish. 

On another note, I usually only browse Tumblr now for a few minutes at a time. Most of which is just porn. I feel like I should un-follow the many porn blogs I follow, because I want to see more funny stuff…but porn is quite enjoyable. We’ll see.

Oh, dear, this appears to be more whining. It seems I’m pretty good at that. Hm.

My desktop computer was broken, and I was freaking out for a week, but then my friend took it home for a night and found the problem. It works as perfect as ever now~ Dota 2 time all the time now.